Well, clearly consistency has not been in my vocabulary this year particularly with my blog. The last seven months have been obsessively filled with finding and getting a job, going to school, discovering new venues, and of late even getting my own place. My passions - drawing, sewing, writing, creating, etc - have all been put on the back burner. Distraction has been the word of each and every day.
"Each and every day" what I love about that phrase is that its a reminder that every day is a new chance. Forget what you didn't get to yesterday, last week or last month....Today is a new day and its filled with opportunities. The catch is though, you have to actually do it.
I've been telling myself for the last two weeks I need to starting writing again. I'm even thinking about trying my hand at writing fiction, bought books, binders, and writing journals. They are still there staring at me, waiting for me...taunting me. Possibilities are only possibilities until you take action. Today I start, Today I act....Today I begin and Tomorrow I will continue.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
......Fluidity
A month ago today I arrived in UAE to start my exciting new life, today I am in Portland, Oregon starting my exciting new life........confused yet?
I'm not, I've learned to embrace the ebb and flow of life. I stopped fighting the change that comes when not called and alters my world. I'm not referring to the roadblocks that are thrown up to impede the path to your dream. I'm talking about a bend in the river that creates an entirely new path for your life.
Embrace the Fluidity of Life. Some of our greatest moments happen when life doesn't go the way we planned.
Today is my birthday and I'm so far away from where I thought I'd be spending this day, but I'm so happy and blessed to be where I am at, the rest is just geography.
I'm not, I've learned to embrace the ebb and flow of life. I stopped fighting the change that comes when not called and alters my world. I'm not referring to the roadblocks that are thrown up to impede the path to your dream. I'm talking about a bend in the river that creates an entirely new path for your life.
Embrace the Fluidity of Life. Some of our greatest moments happen when life doesn't go the way we planned.
Today is my birthday and I'm so far away from where I thought I'd be spending this day, but I'm so happy and blessed to be where I am at, the rest is just geography.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
......Possibilities
As I was cleaning out my apartment preparing to move to UAE, I came across this piece of paper. I can't even remember where I originally got it or how long I've had it, in fact I had completely forgotten about it till it resurfaced during the move.
What a great confirmation of the adventure I was preparing to embark on! Every day your life is filled with possibilities, that is the freshness that each morning promises you. True, when the alarm goes off to get you up for another day of work at a job you don't enjoy, it's hard to see what possibilities await you that day, but seen or not -- they are there.
I've been in UAE for a week now, and despite fulfilling my dream of coming, I too forget to drink in the deliciousness of the effervescent possibilities. What an amazing opportunity I have and yes, it will take time to settle and adjust, but what unbelievable possibilities abound before me.
To truly savor life, do not seek out the empty instant gratification of the now but wait for the exquisite awards that come from nurturing and coaxing the possible into the actual.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
......Your Voice
I had someone tell me once "You teach people how to treat you." I never had someone say this to me this before, so I asked some of my friends if they agreed, they most definitely did. They said that I am very clear what kind of behavior is allowed and what isn't. Not in a mean, bossy kind of way, but in a clear cut matter-of-fact manner.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that we all teach people how to treat us, some of us are just better at it than others.
I hear a lot of chatter these days on Twitter, Facebook, at the office and among friends about putting up with certain behavior because "you can't change people and you can't expect them to change." I agree with that completely, but that doesn't mean that you have to put up with the unwanted behavior. What you can have effect over is how they behave around you.
Find your voice, speak up and say what you want, what is ok and what isn't, no one else can do this for you. I found mine quite a while ago when I realized that spending all my time fixing my friends problems and lives was keeping my life at a stand still. No one was concerned about my needs. If you don't want to deal with your friends constant drama, tell them to take it else where. If you don't like the way you significant other is speaking to you, let them know its not appropriate and tell them what is. If they won't listen to you, do they really bring the kind of value to your life that you want?
The people that are in my life are there because of what they bring to the relationship, a different perspective, finding belly laughs in silly mundane things, keeping me on my toes, whatever is their "specialty" my life is better for having them in it. Those who brought no value, who drained my energy and spread negativity are no longer around.
Find your voice and say want you want, teach people to respect you and the boundaries you have put in place or keep your mouth shut and allow them to trample through your world and demolish your presence......either way you are the teacher and they are the student.
The more I thought about it the more I realized that we all teach people how to treat us, some of us are just better at it than others.
I hear a lot of chatter these days on Twitter, Facebook, at the office and among friends about putting up with certain behavior because "you can't change people and you can't expect them to change." I agree with that completely, but that doesn't mean that you have to put up with the unwanted behavior. What you can have effect over is how they behave around you.
Find your voice, speak up and say what you want, what is ok and what isn't, no one else can do this for you. I found mine quite a while ago when I realized that spending all my time fixing my friends problems and lives was keeping my life at a stand still. No one was concerned about my needs. If you don't want to deal with your friends constant drama, tell them to take it else where. If you don't like the way you significant other is speaking to you, let them know its not appropriate and tell them what is. If they won't listen to you, do they really bring the kind of value to your life that you want?
The people that are in my life are there because of what they bring to the relationship, a different perspective, finding belly laughs in silly mundane things, keeping me on my toes, whatever is their "specialty" my life is better for having them in it. Those who brought no value, who drained my energy and spread negativity are no longer around.
Find your voice and say want you want, teach people to respect you and the boundaries you have put in place or keep your mouth shut and allow them to trample through your world and demolish your presence......either way you are the teacher and they are the student.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
......Fierceness
Life is not pristine and pretty, it is filthy and hard, grimy, sweaty, exhausting and down right dirty, but oh so sweet, succulent and deliciously rewarding.
Life is not for those timid of spirit, nor meek of will, it is for those who ferociously devour the meager plate placed in front of them and greedily grab for more.
A friend of my posted the following poem on facebook and it never ceases to touch me and remind me to stay primal and fierce in following my dreams. So, for those days when you doubt, when you think it's all too much come back and read for we have all......
"Come To Be Danced"
We have come to be danced
Not the pretty dance
Not the pretty pretty, pick me, pick me dance
But the claw our way back into the belly
Of the sacred, sensual animal dance
The unhinged, unplugged, cat is out of its box dance
The holding the precious moment in the palms
Of our hands and feet dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the jiffy booby, shake your booty for him dance
But the wring the sadness from our skin dance
The blow the chip off our shoulder dance.
The slap the apology from our posture dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the monkey see, monkey do dance
One two dance like you
One two three, dance like me dance
but the grave robber, tomb stalker
Tearing scabs and scars open dance
The rub the rhythm raw against our soul dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the nice, invisible, self-conscious shuffle
But the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
Shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance
The strip us from our casings, return our wings
Sharpen our claws and tongues dance
The shed dead cells and slip into
The luminous skin of love dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the hold our breath and wallow in the shallow end of the floor dance
But the meeting of the trinity, the body breath and beat dance
The shout hallelujah from the top of our thighs dance
The mother may I?
Yes you may take 10 giant leaps dance
The olly olly oxen free free free dance
The everyone can come to our heaven dance.
We have come to be danced
Where the kingdom’s collide
In the cathedral of flesh
To burn back into the light
To unravel, to play, to fly, to pray
To root in skin sanctuary
We have come to be danced
WE HAVE COME.
by Jewel Mathieson
www.jewelmathieson.blogspot.com
Life is not for those timid of spirit, nor meek of will, it is for those who ferociously devour the meager plate placed in front of them and greedily grab for more.
A friend of my posted the following poem on facebook and it never ceases to touch me and remind me to stay primal and fierce in following my dreams. So, for those days when you doubt, when you think it's all too much come back and read for we have all......
"Come To Be Danced"
We have come to be danced
Not the pretty dance
Not the pretty pretty, pick me, pick me dance
But the claw our way back into the belly
Of the sacred, sensual animal dance
The unhinged, unplugged, cat is out of its box dance
The holding the precious moment in the palms
Of our hands and feet dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the jiffy booby, shake your booty for him dance
But the wring the sadness from our skin dance
The blow the chip off our shoulder dance.
The slap the apology from our posture dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the monkey see, monkey do dance
One two dance like you
One two three, dance like me dance
but the grave robber, tomb stalker
Tearing scabs and scars open dance
The rub the rhythm raw against our soul dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the nice, invisible, self-conscious shuffle
But the matted hair flying, voodoo mama
Shaman shakin’ ancient bones dance
The strip us from our casings, return our wings
Sharpen our claws and tongues dance
The shed dead cells and slip into
The luminous skin of love dance.
We have come to be danced
Not the hold our breath and wallow in the shallow end of the floor dance
But the meeting of the trinity, the body breath and beat dance
The shout hallelujah from the top of our thighs dance
The mother may I?
Yes you may take 10 giant leaps dance
The olly olly oxen free free free dance
The everyone can come to our heaven dance.
We have come to be danced
Where the kingdom’s collide
In the cathedral of flesh
To burn back into the light
To unravel, to play, to fly, to pray
To root in skin sanctuary
We have come to be danced
WE HAVE COME.
by Jewel Mathieson
www.jewelmathieson.blogspot.com
Thursday, January 21, 2010
......No Limits
This is the message that was in my fortune cookie today. Why would you ever want to keep your expectations reasonable? Who decides what is reasonable?
To me this says "don't expect too much for yourself", that we shouldn't reach for more than we are worthy of. Looking back through the history of the world, imagine all that we would not have if the major players kept their expectations reasonable. I find this theme to run rampant throughout society. We are constantly being put in our place by the overwhelming, unspoken force of "reasonable expectations." Well I disagree most unreasonably so.
There is nothing reasonable about my expectations, my reach is far beyond what others believe I am capable of. My desires surpass what you perceive they should be. My actions will never fit into the mold that has been set for me.
Fortune Cookie says "Keep Your Expectations Resonable".....I say, NEVER!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
......It
You work, you plan, you dream. You talk, you scheme, you search. You breathe it, you live it, you taste it and then without warning, you have it.
We spend so much of our lives working towards that dream, that apex of hope that has been our Truth North for so long. We are never really prepared for when it arrives. That moment when you realize you have to back up all that talk you've been talking for all that time. When that moment hits there is a wave that follows, excitement, then shock, then nausea when you realize that it's put up or shut up time.
I wonder how many dreams died in that very moment? How many crumbled under the weight of following through on their dream. I hope I am one of those that shoulders the weight and pushes through to the result.
I found out yesterday that the biggest hurdle in my dream was removed. All road blocks are gone and it is smooth sailing; all I have to do is jump. You are invited to join me on this journey, for I will not falter under the weight. I am ready for the responsibilities that come with the opportunities.
If you are struggling with giving up on your dream because it feels as if its never coming or because it came to soon. Stick with me, I will not let you down and I expect the same from you.
We spend so much of our lives working towards that dream, that apex of hope that has been our Truth North for so long. We are never really prepared for when it arrives. That moment when you realize you have to back up all that talk you've been talking for all that time. When that moment hits there is a wave that follows, excitement, then shock, then nausea when you realize that it's put up or shut up time.
I wonder how many dreams died in that very moment? How many crumbled under the weight of following through on their dream. I hope I am one of those that shoulders the weight and pushes through to the result.
I found out yesterday that the biggest hurdle in my dream was removed. All road blocks are gone and it is smooth sailing; all I have to do is jump. You are invited to join me on this journey, for I will not falter under the weight. I am ready for the responsibilities that come with the opportunities.
If you are struggling with giving up on your dream because it feels as if its never coming or because it came to soon. Stick with me, I will not let you down and I expect the same from you.
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